Contradictions don’t exist

January 10, 2008

Filed under: Lyrics, Daily Life — Dakota @ 10:50 pm

I cried today at the funeral of a man I had never met.

I expected to be bored, possibly grossed out, and marginally awkward and uncomfortable. And then I entered the room. The sadness was palpable, but not heavy. Sounds of laughter interwoven with sounds of grief drifted all around; I neared the coffin of this man whom I had never laid eyes on, and in his face I saw the faces of everyone I had ever loved or cared about – his peaceful aspect juxtaposed with the idea that he would never again breathe, or see, or touch anyone ever again.

 It makes me want to say everything I’ve ever felt, because you might not be here tomorrow for me to tell you.

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Tragedy (Austin Cello version) - Brandi Carlile

Sorry I’m only
Human you know me
Grown up oh no guess again

My days always
Dry up and blow away
Sometimes I could do that too
But make no mistake that

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I’ll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

Progress, changing
Growing then giving up
Somehow we’re never quite prepared
But I understand it

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I’ll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

So taking you with me would be like
Taking all your money to the grave
It does no good to anyone especially
The one you’re trying to save
But it’s so hard not to save

When you need a friend
You could count on anyone
But you know I’ll defend
The tragedy that we knew as
The end

December 21, 2007

Is it just me, or have I not posted in a very long time?

Filed under: Tests — Dakota @ 12:34 pm

I’m in Cancun, and here’s a survey:

Q: Name a friend whose name starts with an ‘S’?
A: Sarah. I know three.

Q: Fourth person on your missed calls
A: German

Q: What did the last text message you received say?
A: “What are you doing in mexico and why wasn’t I invited?!”

Q: Do you chew on your straws?
A: Not unless I’m really, extraordinarily, bored. So… practically never.

Q: Do you have curly hair?
A: 50% of the time

Q: What’s the next concert you’re going to?
A: I don’t go to concerts often, but I’d like to. (Hint, hint cough-Incubus-cough)

Q: Who’s the coolest person in your life?
A: Everyone…

Q: What words do you say alot?
A: Actually, basically, honestly (What can I say, I like my adverbs)

Q: What is the last thing you ate?
A: Scrambled eggs with vegetables, croissants, a cheese danish, some plaintains, fried potatoes, coffee, and orange juice. Oh, and a slice of roast beef. I mean, it wasn’t a lot of that stuff. It just seems like it…

Q: What is the last thing you said to someone and who was it?
A: “You know, I thought it was a cherry too but its actually just a piece of melon.” — to my mom regarding the garnish on a drink

Q: Do you watch tv?
A: Yes, too much probably.

Q: Have you seen the movie, donniedarko?
A: No.

Q: Ever been hunting?
A: Not for animals. =)

Q: Is marriage in your future?
A: I’d like to think so.

Q: When was the last time you said ‘ILOVEYOU’ and meant it?
A: Tonight, to my boyfriend German.

Q: What should you be doing right now?
A: Napping or writing a letter to the government, I haven’t decided which.

Q: Do you have a nickname?
A: Cody to my family, DK to certain guys who think they are being funny, Kota to friends who think my name is too many syllables

Q: Do you believe in love at first sight?
A: Yes and no

Q: Who’s the youngest one in the family?
A: Me

Q: Is drug free the way to be?
A: Generally

Q: Do you clean up nice?
A: I sure do
Q: Last time you used a skateboard?
A: Never

Q: Where was the last place you slept besides your house?
A: The Riu Palace Las Americas in Cancun

Q: Ever ran out of gas on the road?
A: No.

Q: Best movie you’ve ever seen in the past two weeks?
A: August Rush

Q: Who do you trust the most?
A: In God We Trust

Q: Do you think people who come up with brain dead quizzes are crying for help in some twisted way?
A: Yes.

LAST ..
1) person you saw - Mom
2) talked to on the phone - Country Acres
3) hugged - Mom
4) person you texted -German

TODAY ..
1) date - 12/21/2007
2) plans - swimming
3) dislikes about tomorrow - airport security

CURRENTLY ..
1) missing - you
2) mood -sleepy

TRUE/FALSE ?
I’m a morning person - hahahahahahah, kidding, right?
I’m a perfectionist - on occasion.
I’m an only child - no, but I feel like one
I’m currently in my pajamas - …no.
I’m very shy around the opposite gender - pretty much
I can be paranoid - true
I currently regret something that I’ve done - yes
I enjoy talking on the phone - hahhaaha, kidding, right?
I have a secret - wouldn’t you like to know :p

TAG 10 PEOPLE :

umm…. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10. Okay I’m done.

There’s a real post to come. I promise. :D

September 5, 2007

Hecticity

Filed under: Daily Life — Dakota @ 10:44 am

Life is so crazy right now, I don’t even have time to sleep, let alone update. I’m getting a little behind… which is not good. I’ve gotta fix that.

But basically things are okay.

August 12, 2007

“It’s Beginning to Get to Me” — Snow Patrol

Filed under: Lyrics — Dakota @ 10:42 am

I want something
That’s purer than the water
Like we were

It’s not there now
Ineloquence and anger
Are all we have

Like Saturn’s rings
An icy loop around me
Too hard to hold

Lash out first
At all the things we don’t like
Or understand

And it’s beginning to get to me
That I know more of the stars and sea
Than I do of what’s in your head
Barely touching in our cold bed

Are you beginning to get my point
They’re always fighting with aching joints
It’s doing nothing but tire us out
No one knows what this fight’s about

The answer phone
The lonely sound of your voice
Frozen in time

I only need
The compass that you gave me
To guide me on

And it’s beginning to get to me
That I know more of the stars and sea
Than I do of what’s in your head
Barely touching in our cold bed

Are you beginning to get get my point
They’re always fighting with aching joints
It’s doing nothing but tire us out
No one knows what this fight’s about

It’s so thrilling but also wrong
Don’t have to prove that you are so strong
Cos I can carry you on my back
After our enemies attack

I tried to tell you before I left
But I was screaming under my breath
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I’m gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I’ve lost

We need to feel breathless with love
And not collapse under its weight
I’m gasping for the air to fill
My lungs with everything I’ve lost

August 5, 2007

Wish List

Filed under: Uncategorized — Dakota @ 1:48 pm

Two weeks to my birthday!

Wish List:

- A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini
- A Zen garden & bonsai tree
- Season 1 of Psych on DVD
- A white dendrobium orchid
- A Nikon D40
- For someone to make a decent movie out of an Orson Scott Card novel
- World peace

August 3, 2007

Neon Pink

Filed under: Daily Life — Dakota @ 1:46 pm

Yesterday was fun. Surprisingly enough, my mom actually let me go out. I went ice skating with Larry at Parks Mall and then saw the Simpson’s Movie (*hums “spider-pig, spider-pig”*). I was really absolutely terrible at skating, but it was a lot of fun nonetheless. I had a few very lovely falls onto my ass (didn’t hurt much, there’s a lot of cushioning there :p) and one in which I fell forward (ouch). My ankles are rather bruised also, but its not so bad. I’m going to blame all my falling on the fact that I’m a bit sick at the moment… it might be a sinus infection. I think its stress induced so I’m really trying to take it easy and relax until I feel better. I treated myself to a spa pedicure the other day and got cajoled into an almost unearthly-bright shade of pink by the lady next to me, who said, “Come on, it’s summertime! …Or do you always wear black?” >_> I’ve got to start investing in some yellow or something.

July 29, 2007

Blogging

Filed under: Daily Life — Dakota @ 10:33 am

blog blog blog, blog blog blog blog. Blog? blog blog blog blog, blog blog.

I don’t have much to say today. 19 days still school starts again! :D

July 28, 2007

Is It Any Wonder — Keane

Filed under: Lyrics — Dakota @ 8:29 pm

I always thought that I knew
I’d always have the right to
Be living in the kingdom of the good and true
and so on

but now I think how I was wrong
And you were laughing along
And now I look a fool for thinking you were on, my side

Is it any wonder I’m tired
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right

Sometimes
It’s hard to know where I stand
It’s hard to know where I am
Well maybe it’s a puzzle I don’t understand

But sometimes
I get the feeling that I’m
Stranded in the wrong time
Where love is just a lyric in a children’s rhyme, a soundbite

Is it any wonder that I’m tired
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right
oh, these days
After all the misery you made
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed

Nothing left inside this old cathedral
Just the sad lonely spires
How do you make it right

July 24, 2007

Life

Filed under: Daily Life — Dakota @ 1:06 pm

Things are going better. I’m just going one day at a time.

One-year anniversary of my blog today. This would probably be an appropriate time to reflect on how much has changed since I started and that I’m glad I have a whole chronicle of it, but I really can’t bother. Maybe next year.

It was around this time last year that I was so desperate to go back to school, I was even missing the turkey tetrazzini from Penland (which I never even eat, by the way, because it looks so revolting). I don’t even care right now, though. Sometimes it seems like all life consists of is chasing after snatches of happiness which, as soon as they are caught for a moment, they fall through your fingers — so what’s the point of chasing them anyway? I’m just feeling extra cynical today I think. :-/

July 23, 2007

MercyMe - I can only imagine

Filed under: Lyrics — Dakota @ 6:34 pm

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

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